im a loser

ok here i go again. on again off again weight wagon. What the hell I figure new year, new motivation, new body. so so far ive already had chips, a reeces peanut butter cup I say im off to a great start. Actually I was reading the you on a diet book and scared the crap out of myself. then upon running for 20 minutes straight after not having ran for 5 years, i felt like i was having a heart attack. way to go sherri jump start your heart into cardiac arrest. and besides im not ready to die yet my body doesnt look phat enough for my coffin. on a serious note though i lost my aunt to breast cancer, my grandma has lymphoma and i feel as though im clogging my arteries with fat. sooooo im writing to myself to get real, stop the yo-yo lifestyle be healthy and look hot in my own skin. ok i'll never look hot, not after 3 kids but maybe i can tone up the sagging skin( thanks boys) until tomorrow or whenever i feel the need to write sherri sighning off